I look at my youngest bear now in total disbelief that she will turn two in no time at all, the years really do fly by don't they!?
At first after my last pregnancy and our gorgeous baby girl was thrust into my arms I thought that's it, that's my family complete. Now though, I'm not so sure how I feel.
I'm so happy with our little family of four and I have everything I could ever want but I just think - why not?
I truly believe that you would never ever regret a baby, but we could well look back in years to come and regret not trying, but by then it could be too late.
I think I want to do it all again and make the most of it from day one.
I want to treasure those first flutters again, enjoy those hiccups from my tummy and have that moment of seeing the amazing new life that we created together.
I want to breathe in those new baby smells, I want to have tiny breathy cuddles in the silence of the night and take in every detail from every miniature eyelash to every tiny toe.
One day I'm sure it will feel like enough is enough, but for now everytime I tell my son to hurry up or start behaving, a million times in my head I'm wishing I could press pause and just hold them for a while without the time running away.
There has to be more babies, I need to do all this again.
One day.
