April 11, 2016

OK, I'm Motivated.

I've struggled with my health quest and weight loss since Christmas. Despite the fact I still very much want the health benefits (and looks) of being slimmer, I just haven't been able to get motivated again.

Last year I lost two friends aged 25 and 30 to cancer and seeing their children and loved ones left behind, really kicked my motivation into touch and I went on to lose nearly five stone and started to feel fantastic!

2016 has been tricky; for some reason that motivation has fizzled out and although I've not gained much weight back, I haven't lost any either.

Last week I was talking about one of my friends that we lost and then realised it had been exactly a year since she passed - I took this as a sign.

Saturday came round and I ended up being taken to hospital in an ambulance with my back in spasm, knees that collapsed from under me and I was soon reminded by a kind doctor that my weight probably wasn't helping. Thanks for that!

I think the events this week as well as the warmer weather have kicked that motivation back in again. I don't want to be unhealthy, I don't want to be uncomfortably hot as I try to cover up in the sunshine and I want to set a good healthy example to the kids.

OK, I'm motivated.

Why this has taken nearly four months to kick back in I have no idea, but losing weight just isn't all that easy for us food fans. I'm going to give it a good try though and smash it once again to get me closer to that goal.

Wish me luck!


  1. I am so sorry to hear about your friends Laura. So sad at such a young age.
    I totally understand you on the weightloss front though. A couple of years ago, months and months of serious discipline and ramping up the exercise saw me lose 3 stone. Then I met my fiance, got happy, it was no longer a priority as we were focused on our house, my work, other things, and it slowly slowly went back on again over a couple of years. When he proposed in November I knew I had some serious work to do before our August wedding, and even though I am 2 stone down already with 2 more to go, I find I can stay super motivated and focused for a couple of months at a time, then I just need a bit of a break for a week or two, then I can get back on it. Luckily I never exactly go crazy on those breaks so the result might be a 1 or 2 lb gain, but I find it is what I need to keep going when I have so much to lose. I am sure it probably isn't the best way to do things, but for me, it is sustainable. I simply can't be on top of my diet 100% of the time, especially as I'm often down in London for work and stay with friends and on those days I find it very hard to plan properly. I figure it is also a fairly good way of learning balance - you overindulge, you rein it in afterwards. But I too want to be healthy, because one day soon I'd like to think about kids, and given I'm 34 already I have enough obstacles to pregnancy, without my weight being one of them. Good luck with it! x

  2. Sorry to hear the loss of your friends. That is so sad.
    And sounds like you've had a bit of a tough time with your back problems too.
    Great that you are feeling motivated again, you've come so far already!

    Good luck!